"Finding Myself" – MT

I will be attending Phelps ACE high school in the fall. I want to be an Obstetrician when I get older.

    Since I was 8 years old, I’ve always had trouble trying to figure out who I really was. Can you imagine after 8 long years, to finally see your birth certificate and see that your “mother” isn’t really your mother? My mother then began to explain that she was really my aunt and my aunt was actually my mom. She said my mom couldn’t take care of me because she was so young and already had two kids. I was going to be put up for adoption, but instead she took me in as her own. I felt so alone and hurt I thought no one really wanted me.

Every time I would get in trouble, I would say you're not my mom anyways.  When I got to sixth grade, I finally started to mature and not let traumatic events determine who I was. Later in the 7th grade, my biological mother died. It was like the world crashed once again. My mother kept me motivated and made me believe that I was loved. When she passed away, I was so sad and stopped following any of my normal routines. I always felt different from everyone else because I had two moms and two dads. I later learned how to deal with traumatic events and pushed through and I actually started to believe that it’s okay to be different. In my 8th grade year, I found some good friends that went through experiences very similar to my own. I learned that you can’t let the bad things in life determine who you are.

The best advice I can give the younger scholars is focus on yourself and be yourself. A quote that helped me get through my 8th grade year and life period is by Alyesha Speer, “Life is painful and messed up. It gets complicated at the worst of times, and sometimes you have no idea where to go or what to do. Lots of times, people just let themselves get lost, dropping into a wide open, huge abyss. But that's why we have to keep trying. We have to push through all that hurts us, work past all our memories that are haunting us. Sometimes the things that hurt us are the things that make us strongest. A life without experience, in my opinion, is no life at all. And that's why I tell everyone that, even when it hurts, never stop yourself from living.” This quote is important to me because it reminds me to stay strong. It also reminds me that everything happens for a purpose but we have to keep living because life will get hard but a part of growing is pushing through tough experiences.

– MT