"I Want Out" –AJ

I will be attending Crossland Senior High School in Temple Hills, Maryland in the fall.

The best advice that I could give to my fellow scholars is to stay true to yourself and don’t trust anyone, except for yourself of course. I am not telling you to not have friends or to seclude yourself from society. I am trying to tell you that at the end of the day, no matter how many friends you make or have, they will all leave you eventually, so it’s best that you realize this now.

 “Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that.”~Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. This quote is the most inspiring quote that has helped me this year. I chose this quote because I have been through a lot of this stuff this year, especially relationship wise. I have had my heartbroken and it was too much for me to handle. During this time, I started to harbor hate towards my ex but I soon came across this quote by Dr. Martin Luther King Jr., and it helped me realize that hating him was not going to get me anywhere, so it would be better to forgive but never forget.

 

I want out

I want out.

I’m tired of my heart being played.

I’m tired of being taken advantage of.

I’m tired of stressing over

the most simple things,

worrying if I’m going to have a panic attack.

 

I want out.

I’m tired but I tell everyone okay.

I put on a fake smile and lie straight through my teeth and say I’m okay

Physically I’m okay

But Mentally, I’m the complete opposite.

 

I want out.

I think about my purpose in the world

I realize I don’t have one

I think about how I’ve been lied to

How my soul was stripped down and torn into two

 

I want out.

I want out of this sick, twisted world

Ni**** gettin’ shot just for crossing the street

My already broken heart being stripped down

Layer after layer, piece by piece

 

I want out.

I don’t want to be here anymore

I don’t want to think of what God has in store for me

I just want to be gone, to run away

I just, Want Out

–AJ